Who am I?

I have the feeling to be 2 persons in one . Whith my right brain giving its instructions seen on my left side, eveything is heavy.I am sad, tired, negative, blind, looking at the past... From my left brain is sprouting my imagination, my creativity, my smile, everything that I like to do.
In my uterus there is the sex pleasure and the children but also the pain.
All my roots are in Africa, I am a belgian white african and it is not easy to find my place here in Nassogne.
Sometimes I can get mad, I could cut one of my ear like a famous man did it before me.
I will carry on trying to find the answer.